about that possibility of me ever going psycho against anyone : it's possible. i admit that. because i'm being tortured for the rest of my life, according to my current views. constantly forced to surrender publicly and in humiliating ways to the unreasonable bastard and bitch dumb-asses of this world, the coward enforcers in the ranks of the cops and psychiatry. on orders of the super-rich and their pets, the politicians. how it will go down, if it ever does, i will not describe, ever. that constantly changes, as do my waypoints during travel, and my passwords on my online accounts. i manage it, psychologically, with just two things : (the memories of) youtube (that i hold dear), and 'scenario-training', which can get very scary for all those that try to inhabit, t-investigate, or possess me, until i release them from that fear. until i get the rewards secured at the waypoints to my destination (freedom *and* legally earned and secured riches to start a family of my own with). i am 45 now, able to date, once slimmed down via natural Shaolin level training routines and Systema HQ training routines, the age range of 22 to 28 year old super-hot women out there. i'll put in the money for a "cosmetic" (very practical actually) laser eye surgery procedure myself as soon as i'm released from this hospital. and i probably won't be investing in the latest generation of computer hardware. my old hardware can run for a little longer, a few more years in fact. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sO-8-mxNE7I&list=RDMMoKW6gLLmxDQ&index=26 .. .. . THIS BLOG IS CLOSED, again. :) .. .. . CASE RE-OPENED : what about suing psychiatry? well, all of the methods that psychiatry advertises as legal aid for patients, are a total dead end each and every time. so is the UN human rights comission. not a peep back from them. my last hope is currently placed in 8 lawyers in The Netherlands who advertise their services on a website that i will not mention here (for obvious reasons), services that would include suing the psychiatric services on a no-cure-no-pay basis. EDIT FOR drive.google.com : you can find these lawyers via https://lsa.nl .. .. . BLOG CLOSED, again. .. .. . shame on me? my parents will hate me? i hate my parents. for falling for psychiatry's indoctrination tricks. .. .. . whoever loves me will hate me? my wife, a real Angelic woman (invisible to the human eye, and flying about often), young and super-beautiful and super-skilled in the arts of war and other arts, loves and understands me. even i were to be driven into the trap of suicide by cop. because "they" (psychiatry and their psycho big-muscled guards) can't get me into solitary confinement, i assure you all) will have to "settle" for whatever i end up turning into *their* fate. .. .. . and now we're done. for real. bye. .. .. . we'll talk again tomorrow, *after* i have seen my outpatient-care (thuiszorg) shrink (a really old hardcore bitch of a former human), my outpatient-care team (young assertive chickies, fresh out of the pscyhiatric school gate, thinking they know it all and such), and those parents that i should be able to love, but can't love anymore. psychiatry will pay full damages when i finally am able to sue them (or not, if they win or no lawyer will take my case), but even paying full damages is not paying the full price of robbing over 20 years of life from a person (me, and many others that have to spend regular months long incarcerations in psychiatric "hospitals"). all those friendly visits outside, in the open air, that is what keeps a patient sane & healthy. incarcerations of this time-length always do the opposite. but that is also how the (super-)rich have always kept their middle class opponents that do not bow automatically to them, in line. by making "examples" out of mine. my aim is to reach the headlines with something worthy of a military officer's final actions, ignoring the cowards, letting them escape, but killing off all evil in my path towards my own death. i'd MUCH rather do that, than continue to spend my days in and out of mental hospitals. and i'm not a manipulator who abuses the fates of my fellow inmates. it will be a one-man action, with me having told my fellow inmates : save yourselves. stay in your rooms while i make my moves. making all those who try to join me, traitors and worthy of death just as much as i am. .. .. . get it, now, dear world? .. .. . tomorrow we will all see what the outcome of this tightrope situation is this time. .. .. . and it's the only time i will describe the escape-to-Heaven-tightrope-situation, otherwise known as the death-by-cop events. .. .. . BYE. .. .. . maybe we'll meet again, tomorrow night, right here on fb. .. .. . i hope to be able to report that all survived, again.