After being incarcerated (on false charges) last Friday, now on Tuesday I'm really starting to feel the effects of not inhaling tobacco.

So I asked my doctor if I could start with "walking on my own authority", and just return on agreed times, to just smoke 1 or 2 small cigars while I am outside, and I also promised them to never be smoking any marijuana of any kind. The coffeeshop is too far away fom this place ("the hospital") anyways.

The doctor, who woke me up from a good dream, could not prevent me taking precautions of appearing in that meeting with her and her doctor-in-training assistant, and she (my actual doctor) indicated that she wanted to increase the dose of anti-psychotics by means of daily tablets as well (which was fine with me, because in a hospital they can keep a close eye on things like muscle power degradation).

And when we discussed me smoking on a regular basis again, she (my doctor) said I would need to start with these "walking on my own authority for 3x 30 minutes per day", but that she 'needed to consult with the nurses about that first'.

Then, when that for me already tenseful moment had passed, I addressed that nurse, who was new to me, she said that I could have those freedoms no sooner than next Thursday. That that was hospital-company policy.
Seeing how utterly stressful that situation would get for me over the next few days, as Thursday would be only yet another "evaluation point" according to the nurse, I threatened this company with a public naming and shaming campaign with also audio tapes in Dutch of all 2025 meetings with these people, as well as some complaints commission hearings meetings from a few years ago.

My pile of evidence against psychiatric hospital treatment methods is growing larger every day now.

2025-04-08 17:19pm CEST : AMS Vondelpark neighborhood : I wonder what the nurse is going to do now that I've requested another face to face meeting happen immediately on this smoking rights topic.
I am certainly willing to make full concessions like keeping my pile of evidence hidden and adhering to most treatment methods. But this ban on my daily smoking habits, has got to leave the 'playing field'. For real.

But of course, the 'doctor' had already left the building before the meeting could be re-convened.

Leaving me once again with more bs rules to just blindly obey, while they (my treatment team) got to enjoy the spring season out there, no doubt with a wine and a smoke in their hands. Or a jog. Or a boat-ride and some wine and some smoking.

Life is not fair, one tells a little child.
But can I at 47 years of age please not be treated like a little child anymore?

Or this public shaming campaign of me vs psychiatry amsterdam is going to continue. Both companies mentrum.nl and arkin.nl are fully responsible, together with the government that rules over me, the one in The Hague.

posted to https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/17bCQGGKaN3jcT7Cv457hE1TPEM1lnQCd?usp=drive_link

and then to https://x.com/ReneVeerma64021/status/1909631278699204723 and https://www.facebook.com/rene.veerman.90/posts/pfbid02qJ1s4UK48jpPFgvwKerW7ziu2X96PPRvfKr9VZRuSbyiMbp9F61ELyoHGEEZwFMFl